Escapist Alternative High

Escapist Alternative High

Escapism has always been my favorite drug. I've never felt right in my own skin. Wherever I go, I don't feel like I'm on the right planet. My alternative to the mundane world where hate and bigotry reign supreme is to escape. I was never one to like my situation, as life has left me behind. Everyone else has their friends, family, careers, and schools, where I couldn't ever fit in. It didn't matter what I was, as long as I didn't have to be me. So, what am I to do?

Let me to explain things with an analogy. Halloween is a holiday where people get to dress up as some supernatural monster, or maybe even something less scary. Often, people dress up as something they want to be. We all know that Halloween is mainly for kids, but many adults enjoy celebrating the holiday, too. The old legend states that demons and monsters are closest to our world around Halloween, and it is up to us to dress up as terrifying monsters to scare them away, or maybe just to blend in. My favorite form of escapism is to believe that Halloween is everyday. Very few people would believe that I am a shapeshifting shaman who can summon spirits to, oh, say, write blogs for me, so I have to pass off my wares as innocent fun. You wouldn't really believe that I am a feminine spirit writing on the behalf of a shaman, would you? So, anyway, Halloween is everyday for me, and the one thing I never want to be is human. Humans are the most boring creature in the world. Anything has to be better, right? I encourage you to adopt this mentality. It will make you feel better about yourself, because, God, if you are like me, you always feel like such a loser. No one wants to have their self-confidence destroyed, and everyone wants to feel special. It's evil to hurt someone's feelings, so if you want to imagine yourself as a ghost or anime character, please do, just remember, don't let the hypnotic effects of roleplaying and escapism come out to the wrong people. You don't want to have people think you've lost your marbles, because I bet you're actually really smart. You are reading me, after all. Ha ha.

Escapism requires you to not be yourself. It's addictive to those who would indulge. Actors make a living doing it. They make a lot of money, too. We can only imagine what their lives were like before they got their lucky break. Everyone thought Robin Williams was crazy, and Carrie Fisher was a drug addict before she starred in Star Wars. They were regular people, just like you and me, my friends. It's something to think about. Have you ever been involved in drama club, or some adult equivalent? It can be a lot of fun, if you're into that sort of thing. Consider becoming active in a safe place to practice your escapism. You'll find out it's much more fun to be an escapist with others. Give it a try.

The choices in life are simple. If you have a great life, then, fine, you'll love it. If you have a bad life, all you can do is hate it. I'm sure all victims of bullies aren't having the greatest time, and I am so sorry about that. I've been hated on and abused by everyone I know, and can count my true friends on maybe one hand, if I can even consider anyone to fill such a role. I'm a rebel who has to fight to survive, and I hate what I see in the mirror. I feel I'm ugly, not pretty, and a wretched, rotten fiend. It is not fun to be me, and I have by far given in to the power of escapism. If you find me encouraging, that's fine, but I'm not writing this for you, I'm writing this for me, because the world told me I can't do anything else. Acts of love are the only thing that erases a person's insecurities, and I don't want to hate. It sickens me. I've given into the powers of darkness too many times in life and I want to make it up to the world. If I can escape my reality and become that hero you need, that's what I want to do, but, trust me, I don't have time in my life to do anything besides write this blog. I wish I could do more but you're all so far away and there is only one me, that is, with a physical body. I'll do what I can to inspire you and let you know that escapism is pretty rad. It lets me even think I matter, and isn't that what we all want, a sense of purpose? Maybe that is sort of the point of escapism, to have fun and make you feel like you actually belong. The sense of belonging is tied into our self-worth. We can't feel good about ourselves if we are an outcast, so I'm going to challenge you into finding a role to play in this messed up crazy life. It'll be worth it as long as you are in a safe environment and realize that escapism is a fun way to roleplay.

I'll leave you today with a personal message. Becoming a superhero and fighting evil is something that we can't do, so if you're being bullied, please, tell a trusted adult. Bullying is something that needs to be wiped out from schools and the only way to do that is to let someone who can do something about it handle it. A bully will always be able to do what he does to people like you and me should their terror go unchecked. Tell your teachers, your parents, or the police if you have to. Hurting people's feelings and making them submit to physical abuse is the way that "demons" would act and it's not okay. Be safe, and, please, try to see the good in life, even if it seems so darn hard at times.

-C.P.