I wrote this to tell you what it is like being torn between this world and the other world. I became a pagan years ago. I did not care for it although the spiritual power was immense. I know god is real, but ever since then I am torn between two faiths. I write novels based on pagan druids and witches from a personal perspective, with my intense spiritual and pagan knowledge. I know this all sounds unreal but I am an unreal man. I am indeed a druid by birth and I take it very seriously, but do not worship forgotten gods or the earth mother, though I offer her praise. Many people do not understand pagans, and I write to clear up falsehoods and stereotypes. All gifts come from the heavens.
I was given my trait at a younger age and each day I become physically and spiritually stronger. I have discarded my magicks for very real psychic and spiritual prowess. Is this from god? I'm not sure. My bloodlines are a very special degree as I have served my home for years with what I have. I have no identity, as the spirits pass on various skills. I wish I were an angel, but god, I cannot be, for ultimately I am just a human.
It is my natural pagan heart that bleeds, and I have decided to live a path where I must guide those through the evils of life. I am a gate keeper, a tiller of the ground, a blind seer, and a person in which light and dark coexist. I love and feel compassion for all, but my dark half is cynical, but also controlled. I wish nothing more than everyone to be empowered, and my last three female leads, Erin, Lisa, and Autumn are all powerful women who control both magicks and sense as they are the superior gender always. I love creating, and I have found my writing to be from another era, but always pure.
My love for mankind is always, always there, but I can spot evil a mile away, or further. There is so much...... but my grandma taught me to find the good in everyone, and personal experience has shown me the evil of men is always within those who out a mask on in the community. I write this all to you that we may gain a deeper understanding of society. We are humans, and all capable of great things, as I have seen many talented writers, many who put their heart and soul Into their works. I believe life is pain, but I have accomplished so much, that I do thank god for it.
Pagans are, by far, the most misunderstood people. Christ was killed by man, and thus Joan De Arc. She was the french savior and pariah, and I have dedicated much of my time in her memory. I will restore the identity of druids and pagans, and I will do good. Karma and empathy do plague my soul, but it's all justice in the end. God is a champion of justice, and I wish many could also see that. I do not suffer, for what pain I have I bear with pleasure for what I have is immense, and I consider myself to have picked up many skills that I try to relay to people through my writing. I will not lie, I wish for a new age. Surprisingly enough, I do not believe in the zodiac but I hope it will be called "The Age Of Capricorn." The new age, how you say? A very bad reputation. However, what is wrong with empowering each person and letting everyone that they too should be able to access the skills that I have acquired throughout time? It is worth saying it is not for everyone.
My conclusion is that I want you to know my heart is always torn between two worlds. It's day, night, or yami and yama I believe? What I am is a believer in all things, and I pray you'll all find your way. Do not be swayed by my words but I hope we can all be one and always fight for the same side. Be it a necroscope and a warrior, or a pagan and a visionary, we all serve a central mandate. Peace for all. Live, do not loathe, and love, but do not hate. No matter how annoying the person is. We all are brothers and sisters, and I pray we all will act like it.
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